Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

simply kree


Abe Jaa Na...Emad

The day has come to say good bye
But God made a Character Dheela like you
I always wonder why.
My sad face, my eyes that cry
But a heart that says Bose DK Bhaag...ab jaana bhai.

When we came Roobaroo, is the memory I choose,
You just looked like a Bandar ke sar pe tarbooz.

Everyone has Andaz Apna Apna, I witnessed while working with you,
Your sense of humour made all say Aak Thu!

Work, stress, silly clients & bad times that were few,
what made me forget all of it, was you.
Work load & struggle were on a par,
I begged- Ee saal ka lagaan maaf kari dyo sarkaar,
You resolved my problems & dropped me home in your car.

Everyday Tu nikla gaddi leke,
Traffic ko mast me tang deke.
Staying with you there were Rewards Everywhere,
The Disco Dancer in us had spread everywhere.

I wondered, Kutte Kaminey...
you are a great friend in everyway & I thought so
Teri maa ki... Jai ho.

I don’t care what the world thinks of you,
But I Hate You Like I Love You
Aap Purush Hi Nahi...Maha Purush Hai
is all I can say.

Remember one thing for sure
Whenever you need me
I will come from Saat Samundar Par
Just for Yeh Dosti so pure.

He who stands tall in a crowd

He who stands tall in a crowd
Stands out in the crowd
just because of his charm & wit
his voice feels like a thousand lamps lit.

His simple eyes, shine & sparkle they bring
He shuts his ears when I begin to sing
Stays awestruck as I commence to dance
to hug me, he leaves no chance.

He who stands tall in a crowd
gives a frown when my smile goes missing
but smiles at my silly stupid sweet little somethings.

He waits patiently for the snail in me
aspires each minute to just be with me
I wonder how he finds all the comfort & bliss
just by the presence of me.

He who stands tall in a crowd
aspires me to be tall enough
not to be as good or proud
but to be naughty & devilish enough
so that I can give back
all the smirks & every evil laughter attack
so that his pranks are taken aback
his pinches, his tickles, his punches, his slaps
lead to a fun destination without any maps.

As he lies down with his head on my lap
the sweet devil now appears like a baby taking a nap
takes me far to a distant land
we are away from our frowns, have our hand in hand.
The innocence, the peace, no sign of any fear on his face
He wants to be mine, he is mine is all they convey
His arms, his hug, there is no safer place
I live to see the sunrise with him, everyday.


He who stands tall in a crowd
makes me crazy & shout out loud
That he's flavoured my life with his special spice
my addiction for him has grown as much as twice.

The eyes that see me

I cannot forget those eyes
That say I have an admirer in disguise

Those eyes that see me beautiful
Make me feel love is beautiful

They reflect his heart
That was hurt by my dart

Eyes that always say the unspoken
eyes that reveal a heart that can never be broken

Eyes that engulf a mystery within
What makes him so loving is trapped in

I'm free

I'm free
free from the feeling of always having you around
free from the moments filled of emotions but no sound.

I'm free from my special smiles reserved just for you
free from the blushes that appeared at just the sight of you.
Not bound in any secure world full of bliss with you
I'm free, now entering a lone world without you.

I'm free from cozy greets and frowning good byes,
I'm free from my beauty that I saw just in your eyes.
Free from your anger that appeared when I was away
not bound to the wish to make you smile anyway.

I'm free from your touch that felt just as water
free from the feeling that no one else did matter.

I'm free from the tears I shed waiting to be in your arms
I'm free from the tears I shed in your arms.

I'm free from the fear of losing you, forever that shall be
I'm free from the hope of wanting you, just for me,
I'm free of You
or am I even more bound to your imprints on me?

Why?

Why did our eyes meet?
Why did our hearts beat?
Why did we see dreams together?
Why did fate blow it like a small feather?
Why did only we laugh when nothing was funny?
Why did suddenly something seem more important than career or money?
Why did we both feel sad, when only one was in pain?
Why did our lives go through an emotional drain?
Why do I think I lost, but still you never won?
Why do we have to go apart when we need someone?
Why my eyes are not dry, when you still cry?
Why don't we have the courage to say good bye?
Why couldn't I deserve you, but you still want to try?
Why can't I bear the truth & you don't want to lie?
Why in love, together we fell?
Why will I never get heaven & why should you face hell?

2 years ...2 months

It was a plain white sheet of paper with a lot of scientific details that seemed like a foreign language to me. Applying all the knowledge I ever had, I tried analysing the text. All that came across to me, had some sort of negativity. As if I had suddenly turned dyslexic, the letters danced around & together formed "the creature". The white sheet of paper turned black. Then evening came with the news that there truly was a creature that dwelled within him. He who was the strongest man I ever met. He who changed my defination of strength-emotional strength was far more superior than the physical one. The perfectionist, the most organised man, who transferred his bad temper to me through his genes.
Back then, not only me, but all of us wanted to kill the creature that dwelled in his body & was trying to kill him by each passing minute. We prayed hard the day we had decided to kill the creature. After the first attempt, I was so glad that not only a major part of the creature but an equal amount of my father's vital organ was removed, to avoid the further spread of the creature. Hope came back & showed me a way to a world that ran parellel to this world where the creature was attacking my family. That new world kept me away from the reality, showered emmense love, kept me in an illusion that everything was going to be fine while in the real world, our try to kill the creature slowly was still on.
Months passed increasing our hopes to a level where all of us believed that the creature is no longer strong enough to harm him & our family anymore. But I had not even thought of it in the worst of my nightmares that the creature stayed quiet & grew stronger with time. Strong enough to ruin our lives forever, crash down our lives to a point from where it could never be built the way it initially was.
All I remember was my father's fingers seeking for a hand he could hold when he knew he was being strongly attacked by the creature. His eyes were looking for hope that had vanished in the darkest forests. His gestures showed helplessness. I could not see him in the eyes because I was supposed to be strong, supportive, a liar who would pass him fake stories of hope & his well being. All I knew was to comfort him, help him in keeping his dream, his office alive. I did not know what to pray; pray for my family's happiness anyhow... father's well being or the creature's death.
One night, my father who was lying injured mentally after his fights with the creature, he came back to his senses, just to say good night to me. I smiled at him, unaware of the fact that i will smile again when my prayers will finally be answered. The next morning, finally, The creature was dead & so was my dad. His suffering was over but so was his life. The creature did not win as my dad gave up his body fighting against it. To me, he said good night & slept forever.
Since then I always feel glad about that the fact that dad is now at peace & so are we as we are not fighting any thing. Its all over now, truly. That world ended with dad. The remnants of the family entered a new world where each of us was busy in their own worlds, scared to be together & share their grief, scared to break each ones illusion of happiness.
But I always thought, when I went back to the day it all ended, how dad must have felt then...had he always known about his end or he died seeking hope; why was that we were the unfortunate ones to be attacked by that filthy creature. Soon then the new busy world attracted my attention.
It was like being on a swing,
his memories came to me 
when I swung back
but as I swung ahead
They suddenly went missing.

Today after two years since it all started & two months after it all ended...finishing my father's existence, the old so called normal world & the new busy world are slowly converging.
Leaving behind no questions as to how, why, when, where this biggest disaster happened but a silence...a long silence...where its me, my mother, my sister with all other people who were always a part of our lives. I sit, eat, drink, smile, laugh, survive normally but suddenly realise that something is missing.
It is like being on a swing
I am rest assured that all is well
I look around 
and he goes missing.

2 years when all we did was fought but these 2 months seemed even longer.

Just a sweet apology

Hey my sweetie just smile
forget your anger for a while
Look at your girl, just one glance
let me ask for forgiveness, i need just a chance.

Such an idiot I am, to hurt you like this
A nice date night, is what I unintentionally miss.
the dumb blonde I am, the way you say
can I make up for the dumbness, today.

Pull my ears, hit me, pinch me
accept my apology, don't ignore me
O my sweet little smart guy
chill out & speak to me.

I kept running rather was being pulled entirely
by a job, a career I chose wholeheartedly
& all it had created was a mess
eventually my sweetie got ignored I guess.

Situations & luck always play their game
what problems come along, have no name.
transferred from them to me, gets all the blame,
so I won't continue with excuses so lame
& tell you that my POA 2day has just your name.

Let's meet up & have a blast
let me show my love & create memories that forever will last.

Let's chuck the work, the all time worry,
Just give me a chance to say sorry.
:) :) :)

wake up ?

Every morning what I dread is to open my eyes
I sit up & fold my hands to pray
but don't know what to ask nor what to say
another bad day is about to begin.

Long lost are the days when mornings came with hope
now is the case that I just want to elope
either into a world that is too busy to let me think
or into a world where I just live as on others will.

Every minute passes with discomfort
either someone special is low or its me who's hurt.

Every passing hour pushes me closer to my fear
haunts me at the sound of every & anything
making me tired & make me lean on someone that is dear.

To my surprise, I find myself alone
with no shoulders around to lean
even though, strength & support, to others, I am & I have been.
how can I pass the same now when I am a stone.

I long for the night to go home & sleep
So I can bury my fears, my sorrows down deep
& get up to a morning that has everything perfect
the pessimism, the discomfort, forever has left.

Nights come in & days erase the hope
I dread each day & hate it every way
Shut my eyes & never open, is what I Pray.

Romance...Filmy ishtyle

You are surely related since ages to me
'coz no one has ever been this closer to me
Jaane tu ya jaane na
Maane tu ya maane na

Our first enclosure wasn't sweet at all
you gave me a shock when i was about to fall
A walk down the street told - how sensible is he!
A confession by you told - how stupid is he!

Confusion is all i got Jab we met
I never imagined what future would I get

Aashayen - your song for hope
I always thought- my frequency you could never cope.

Came a day when i finally got pulled Teri ore
I had truly got lost in your beliefs to the core

And since then Yeh tumhari meri baatein went on & on
The distance between us was erased & gone.
Aaj din chadheya with your lovely thought
blushes & smiles was all it brought.

At times, The dark kNight came along with a fight
love & peace was out of sight,
Tu jaane na how hurt I was
there was no clue, there was no cause.

Dhan te nan, here enters a different situation
Our feelings , our conversations are back in action.

Climax teaches after a trip that is long
what matters is not just 'me' but also 'you'
So i just say 'the end' with this song
Everything I do I do it for you...

the sinking...

Why all of a sudden stupid things matter to you & me
small gushes of wind came in & went away always

But this time- its a storm, a silent storm
or the silence before the storm
or the storm has just passed by

whatever it was,
has left behind a sinking feeling with you & me.

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